Growing UP!

So all my life, well I am pretty sure everyone does it when they are kids, but I always wanted to grow up, to graduate high school and FINALLY start college. I thought " Life will be so simple". Boy was I wrong. Wow, I mean ever since i graduated its been trial after trial for me haha. Fun stuff? Not so much. It all started about a year and a half ago, okay so i guess a little before I graduated. But My dad lost his job, and had to leave to work in Salt Lake City, WHILE we were trying to sell our little perfect house that has been my sanction for so many years. I tried to be strong for my family, to let them know that everything was going to be ok, all the while not knowing for myself. I was all set to leave for Utah On July 3rd with my Best Friend Christina Wood, who had been there for me, and I her, for the last 7 years. Well besides my dad being layed off and having to sell my beautiful home, most everything was going well. I had awesome friends, and it was about the best summer thus far that I had ever had!! My brother Josh had gotten home from his mission and I was so excited. Well that all changed. On June 19th at about 1 in the morning, i reciever a phone call from Christina, i pressed agnore a total of three times, then listened to the message which said to call her back.. so i did.. she informed me that he dad was in the hospital with a punctured lung. I rushed to her house at around 1:45 am, and She, her brother Jason, and I drove to the hospital. On the way their a social worker called and told us to hurry up, which we though nothing of, we eventually got there and were greeted by a nurse, social worker, and police officer, we were all very confused becuase one of them had Kathy(Christinas moms) purse. They took us in a room and said nothing of Kathy but proceeded to tell us about how her dad, and my stake president was doing. He had suffered alot of damage from the accident, and wasn't in a good state. They had said nothing of Kathy, so Christina asked, "where is my mom?" The nurse said.. "thats what we need to talk to you about.." Christina braced herself, and I immediately knew what was coming.. the nurse continued to say " Your mom didn't make it through the accident" It felt like a movie, noone knew what to say or do.. Christina was heart broken, we sat outside the hospital for HOURS and just cried all night/morning. I got home around 9:30. I crawled into bed to go to sleep and hopeully wake up from this terrible dream that I was in, but 5 minutes later my dad came in and told me it was time to get up, I didn't respond he then said "Jourdan if you are going to be cranky then its not going to be a good day for you" I then couldn't take it anymore.. i yelled out "Kathy Wood died!!!!!" The house fell silent. The woods had been family friends since my granparents, they even hooked up my parents. Kathy was my seminary teached, voice coach, and part mom. The news made everyone cry, the though of losing her was so painful. My heart ached. Now the trick was to try to get over it.. Christina and I still moved to Provo three weeks later. We started a new life. But how culd we forget the old one! Provo, boy what fun! I had some of the BEST roommates ever. A few who are some of my best friends now. One who I know will always have my back :) But the trials didn't stop there.. Now that noone made me go to church what was the pont right? wrong. it seems as though every time I didn't go to church i got sick, or something. I couldn't find a job for the first FOUR months while I was there. It was about time to give up right? wrong again. keep praying I told myself, but that is definitely not what I did. I stopped going completely for around a month. I left all spirituality that I ever had.. I needed that back. One night after a long talk with one of my roommates Kristen, I spilled and broke down. I got a blessing the next day, and talked to the bishop the following Sunday. Life was back on track right? wron AGAIN! Well yes I finally found a job, I was going back to church, I had a boyfriend... well the spirit had different plans for me. I was to move home?? yeah... So there goes all my friends, my fancy job, my own apt, and my boyfriend. I did it though. I figured it wouldn't be that bad. WRONG!! Some of the hardest months to get through. I moved in with my Awesome Aunt Kerry, I was SUPPOSED to be working full time at GAP, however they only gave me about 15 hours TOPS a week... awesome i can buy nothing with that. So i kept looking for a job... a MONTH later i found a job at Subway, so I was to start there asap?? nope. got in a car accident.. Totalled the car, dislocatedm then popped my shoulder back in, bruised the bones in my leg(which i still have), possible tore i ligament in my left shoulder, and got whiplash. awesome. Well so i recovered quite fast i might add and went to work for both jobs. I was to be working at least 40 hours between two jobs.. nope I was working about 28... TWO JOBS AND 28 HOURS? So lame. I however had a man now! Well guess what? 6 weeks later. he is gone. Turns out is wasn't right. I mean better to learn early i guess. I couldn't take it, I needed my daddy :( I moved to Windsor(Santa Rosa) where they moved, and I love it here. I couldn't have asked for a better family. I mean sure I hang out with 15-17 year olds, but they are some of the funnest people ever, all so nice. I thought it was going to be easy to leav, but every time I think about it, I begin to be sad! Haha I am kinda pathetic. I can't EVEN wait to see a few of my friends in Utah though, I mean I am lost without them!! But to leave this place will be even harder than the first time. School awaits though! So many adventures ahead for me! We will see what awaits... :)